Will I Be A Lawyer?

Two months ago, I made a possibly insane decision. I decided that I was going to law school. I have always wanted to be a lawyer and somethings just set me off. When I get something in my head I am the most determined and stubborn human being alive. One Friday in January, I signed up for the LSAT, start researching law schools, and dove right in. Good for you, I hear you saying, that's what I'm supposed to do. There's more...

Now, a little background. I am a 40+ mother of two adult children. I currently work as a paralegal in a midsize firm in Texas. I live comfortably and have made a lot of achievements. Why should I upset the cart? I think the reasons are many but mainly because I know there is something more in this life. I don't think I have achieved everything that I can. Is that reason enough? I don't know.

The last 2 months have been crazy as hell. I took the LSAT in February and have been waiting for the results. The waiting is killing me. I have NO patience at all. I think I called in sick the day that God gave out the patience virtue. The results are supposed to come out today. I have refreshed that website so many times that it now flashes "It's the same as last time". I have searched very relevant website and message board. I even called the LSAC to see if the results would be released today. Of course not. Maybe tomorrow.

I am looking at law schools in California, Texas, New York, Lousiana, and maybe Nevada. I have applied to 6 schools (3 in California, 3 in Texas) thus far. I will apply to 4 more if my LSAT score is respectable. My SO and I decided that if we were going to make a change it had to be dramatic. We both like the ocean and big cities. We love San Diego, San Francisco, New Orleans, Las Vegas, and New York. These are big markets so it shouldn't be that hard for him to find a job while I go to school. Since I am considered as a "career changer" I am limiting my law school choices. After researching the law school application, I have discovered that the process is ultra competitive and geared towards the 22-25 year old recent graduates. This doesn't intimidate me but makes me a little serious.

I am going to place these updates on the blog and so I will have a journal of the process in case I don't get in. My SO is very supportive but doesn't understand what I am going through and I am not sharing with my co-workers or friends because I don't want many people to give me that look. You know the "aw, you can do it." look or the cynical "are you sure?" talk or the "good for you, I'm too old" commiseration speech. Your comments are encouraged and appreciated.